Amber Brown spent her entire existence believing Dave was her father. When her mother reveals this is untrue, she goes through an emotional spiral with depression. It's hard for her to believe her mother had lied to her all this time.
A move to a new home and town causes Amber to be consumed by her "darkness" and reverts to cutting to free herself from her pain.
When Casey, her new friend enters her life, she introduces Amber to parties, drugs, and Amber's new boyfriend Landon. The secret of cutting begins to take affect on Amber as she tries to hide it from her friends and family. In the mist of everything, Amber has the desire to find out who her biological father is.
Follow Amber through her trials of depression and cutting, along with the discovery of love.
WOW! Where do I literally start with this book. I was intrigued by the story line and when I realized it was about a girl a teenage girl cutting herself it made me think of a person who is really really close to me. It was like most of her story was being written. With the way Amber was treated at school because she was different, the problems with her family life, only having one best friend and then another who just did not seem all there at times. To even the boy who knew about her cutting herself and did not want her to do it again because he was afraid for her.
There were a few things that got to me a bit in this book.
One thing I do wish the author would have gone into detail about is when she started cutting herself exactly. How did her and her friend start and why?
What was up with Casey? It was like she was a bit crazy in my opinion. She would be fine one minute, then the next be upset. I wonder if she knew the truth with Amber's family.
The way Amber treated her mom I can relate to that part because I have seen someone act that same way!
I loved reading how Amber's boyfriend was his safe haven, and I know how important it is for someone to have a safe haven when they are hurting themselves. This book really opened my eyes to what some teenagers do out their and it made me ask questions to the person close to me about the whole cutting scene. The way the darkness was described I could almost feel it myself in this book.
This is a hard topic for anyone to talk about as it deals with depression and the need to relive oneself from everything even for a few minutes to a day to a week.
RaeBeth hit the head of the nail on this book, and as I see there is a book 2 I am SOOOOOOOO GOING TO BUY IT.
I recommend this book from YA on up.
I asked the person who use to cut herself some personal questions. One question was how did you feel doing it? And her response is as followed: "It made me feel free and released a lot of anger and pain and hurt but on myself instead of others"
I also asked her why did she feel the need to do it. And her response is as followed: "The anger and pain was from home school and just other things I was always made fun.of never told mom and yes he is my safe haven he is the one thing that keeps me from cutting myself."
It hurt me in a way as though this person was doing this and I never knew until she told me a year ago. When I started reading this book and saw what the story was I started tearing up as I felt guilty in a way for not being the rock or the person that someone needed. But now this person understand that if she ever feels the urge to talk to me, call me, yell at me, cry whatever but to just not hurt herself anymore. And to know that I will always be there for her.
Thank you again RaeBeth, for writing a book like this that brings something so sensitive to others and brings up the subject in a way that is not pushy for people to understand. You write it in a way that gets others aware of things like this happening.
This cover for the ereader is the perfect choice for this book! If I saw this book in my local book story or library I sure enough would grab it. It not only appeals to me but it also intrigues me. Perfectly done!
My Rating: 5 wine glasses
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